(Note: One should listen to songs #41,spoon,lover lay down,or sweet up n down. All by dave matthews band all were listened to while writing this, you'll better understand the mood of it all)
Life....
"You have to do what you love to do, not get stuck in that comfort zone of a regular job. Life is not a dress rehearsal. This is it."
Life has been good to me this year. The bonds with my friends are becoming stronger and stronger with each day, and it seems i'm always making new friends each day which is cool. I'm still in search of a job, but i'll find one soon....i hope.....
My Friends....
"Friendship is the source of the greatest pleasures, and without friends even the most agreeable pursuits become tedious."
My friends are the greatest and i'm greatful i have each one of them in my life, and they are all good people and help me when i'm lost and listen to me when I have a problem, and even though they might not be able to help they will try their best to do what they can for me. And i appreciate that very much. They also all have unique things about them. For instance Mikey (a.k.a Mitch-hollywood)he's a really funny kid and just whatever he does you just want to be around him cause the things he does are so interesting and funny and i'm still learing things about him. And then there's Aleksey we have been best friends since 6th grade, and there is no one else like him in solon (chuckle) The reason i say this is because his personality is so different. For instance when i tell him something he will help me with it, but the way he goes about it is so unique, because he will make it seem like he doesn't care but in the end i know he does and he always has my back.And all my other friends like brenden,cooch, clay, jenn, alexa, alexis,andrea,carly,sarah and everyone else you are all very unique and i'm very greatful to have to all in my life. You make each day easier for me and you guys always have my back and just know that i will always have yours no matter what.
Family....
"Other things may change us, but we start and end with family."
My mom has been bugging the hell outta me for the past 3 weeks and i don't know but she just keeps getting pissed off at everything me and my sister do but whatever she'll be nomarl again. My little brother is still a crazy little kid and i can't wait till he grows up, because i've always wanted a brother and now that i have one i'm going to make the best of it. My sister is a great person and i can talk to her about anything and we have become closer the past year, why i do not know maybe because she is leaving for college soon and i won't see her much, but for whatever reasons we are on good terms right now i'm happy with that. For my dad i really dont have much to say about him only thing i can think of is that i wish i could change his past and fix all the things that went wrong, but i think my dad is growing up and is actually starting to act like the man he should have been when he became a dad, and i'm proud of him for that.
Love....
"Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible -- it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could."
Lover is a crazy thing and right now i'm very confused in that area. Being single is all right but there are still times where i just wish i had someone to hold and someone that i knew would always just be there for me with unconditional love.....sigh..... my past expercience with love was alright and then i met Jenn and i've never felt a love so strong from someone before and i loved her so much more then she will ever no and she was teh greatest thing in my life for 7 months and we did have hard times but we had many great times. And she was right i started caring to late and maybe that's my problem it's not that i didn't care i did care about her i just maybe didn't show it as best as i could......but she has moved on and now has a new b/f and i wish the bust of luck to her in her relationship and as long as she is happy then i guess it all worked out for the better but i still love her and i always will she was my first love and my strongest and i have a deep respect for her......I guess i've moved on to i mean we are great friends now but i just cant seem to figure out who i like, because i like two people and this one girl she has such a great personality and i love being around her and i always can't wait till i see her in class because she is just such a nice person and i feel so comfortable around her.....and then there is the other girl who is just so ....god i can't even explain her...she just so nice and has such a good heart and i can def see a future with her and i can see it being the next greatest thing to come my way but the problem is when i'm around her i can't think of anything to talk about and it bothers me because i really want to get to know her and i really want something to happen between us....i just wish i could take both the girls and combined them into one girl and that would be the great thing ever.....but maybe the reason i can't seem to figure out who i like is because i keep comparing it to my relationship with jenn and nothing can come close to that and maybe now i just have such high standards that i won't be satisfided but who knows ....i sure don't... only time will tell what happens and i hope whatever happens it will be good not bad......
Future.....
"My interest is in the future because I am going to spend the rest of my life there."
....I hope that my future will play out to be a good one, and i'm just goign to keep trying my best at school and at everything. I hope i meet more people and make more friends and i hope the friends i have now.. well i hope for us that we just all become closer and closer because the days are getting shorter and we are getting closer to graduating so we shall make these days,months and years the best time of are lives..for my family i hope just that things get better then they are now. For my future with love i just hope that love is good to me and that i have someone to call my own...and i would like to make note for my friends aleksey and mikey i hope and wish you guys the best of luck in your relationships and you guys have two great girls and it makes me happy to see you guys happy.....but for what the future holds for me i really do not know and i can only try my best and help mold what i hope my future will become....
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